I guess school is not for everyone. At least not now.
As I said before Liv started school in October. The first few weeks were ok. She would cry when I dropped her and then stop as soon as I left and she would enjoy school. She would even be excited about going. Then something in her just changed. I don't know if she realized that I was never going to stay at school with her or if she just got even more attached to me and did not want to leave me to go. She was also beginning to be really clingy to the teacher all day.
Then suddenly she would ask me if she was going to school every day and at very random times. When I would say "No school today" she would be ok, but if I asked do you want to go to school, She would start to cry and get upset. Then one day I was with my Aunt and she asked how Olivia was doing with school, Olivia overheard this and got so upset, it took me about a half hour to calm her down. While she gets upset about this she holds on to me real tight and will not let me put her down.
Liv missed school last week because she was sick, then on Monday morning when it was time to get dressed Liv asked me if we were going to school, I knew I couldn't lie to her, so I said yes. She got so upset, crying, wouldn't let me dress her, holding into me. I couldn't even imagine how I was going to get us ready and get her into school. I caved, I tried to get her mind off of it ,and then later when she asked me, I said no school is closed for today.
So I think we have come to the conclusion that Liv might not be ready yet for school. I don't like that she is constantly thinking about going to school. And is so nervous that today she is going to school. Even when I talk about all the good things at school, and how her friends miss her, she still gets upset.
However I feel like a failure. I keep asking myself should I push her to go, am I being too easy, am I doing what is best for her??
That Mommy guilt will get you every time!!!!
Thanks for listening to me vent, now here is what you came for!!
Ahhh Winter is on it's way!!!!